Oh No
I have just finished reading Chapter 4 in "The Artist's Way", which I have admittedly been reading again for way more than four weeks, but for whatever reason I have not been terribly diligent. I hope to be more so this week, which means that I will not be reading or watching TV for one week. That wouldn't be so bad if I had a job or any sort of hobby that took me out of the house ever but, alas, I guess that is the point. Apparently I should be finding some sort of bubbling up of energy and creativity as a result of taking away the distractions of my life. It makes sense, it really does, but I am barely twenty minutes in and already stir crazy. (This is due, in part, to the very interesting new book I started reading called "The Shadow of the Wind" that my old boss gave me. I don't really want to put it down for week. It is also due to the Dexter Season 2 DVD that we will be getting in the mail, the two "The Office" episodes on the TiVo, and the "Battlestar Gallactica" that we have been avoiding because of the raw emotional state that the returning episode left us in last month. There are three new ones crossing their arms and tapping their toes and impatiently raising an eyebrow at me every time I turn the tv on. Well, ha. I can't watch you, it is my assignment this week.
Speaking of assignments, though, I also have two articles to read for class as well as a midterm to study for. But I realized something about that. Yes, I am a good student, but that doesn't seem to matter here at all. The Academic side is really sad and quite frankly a joke. Individuals who do half the work (the half that doesn't require reading the articles and writing responses) still get A's in the class. So maybe it doesn't matter. Maybe not reading this week is somehow serendipitously tied to my own growth, seeing as how one of the things that keeps bringing me down is how mediocrity is rewarded and hard work is never recognized. Okay, then. Maybe it is time to allow that mediocrity to do whatever it wants while I recognize that it is also okay to not fulfill that particular goal this week as part of a greater growth that I am currently not receiving at school.
Fairly certain that you will get LOTS more posts, though.
posted by Moose Tucker @ 11:32 AM
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Wondering if this also applies to email. I have a tendency to lurk over emails these days as I am here all day long. I wait for any amount of contact and, when none arrives short of spam and sales pitches, I usually fall into a greater funk. Some of the "friends" that I have like to lord over me the fact that they are employed, so whenever they send an email it usually feels like they are put out and that I am wasting their time with my neediness. So, I feel worse again. Perhaps this is the best possible solution. No contact with those people for a week. If anyone wants to really contact me, it would have to be by phone. Plus, it gives me something to return to in one week to review. Very interesting.
Of course, it is going to make my lit review more complicated...
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